Padala from Canada!

Tyanak! Finally we already received the ever famous 'padala' from Canada! Thanks for sharing your blessings LOLA!!! Iba na talaga ang rich!

I asked Jojo to meet Kenneth(Syana's Cousin) at Greenhills last night to pick up the much awaited package ni DOnya Syana for the three beautiful and sexy ladies of the ever famous teletubbies... I went to work last night and only now was I able to see the blessings... Salamat Salamat Syana...how generous of you to still think of your friends you left sa nagdudurahop na Manila...sige, papadala rin kami jan promise! (pirated dvd's you want?hehehe)


HERE IT IS!



<======== this is the much awaited package for Ruthie! yehey!
This is the one for malenski, yahoo! package kung package ke malen!============>



and this is for me....i received a box of pot of gold excellence chocolate (chocolats fins et truffes) and syempre ang pinaka gusto ko...victoria's secret cologne...how sweet of you syana! salamat from the kaibuturan of our hearts...mabuhay ka!

again to Donya Syana...thank you so much, sana di ako masuka sa Chocolate na ito coz hindi sanay ang aking lalamunan sa chukuleyt na imforted...at sa kwakas, madadampian na ng original na Victoria's Secret ang aking valat. hahaha! yPagpalain ka at sana ay dumami pa ang lahi mo ke Jhun (ano daw?) Love you Syana and Happy new year!

I've eaten so much last night!

I cant believe it! I've eaten so much last Christmas Eve! Oh my! Well this is what happened, since my shift is from 9pm to 6am - I've already prepared myself that I will not partake of the much awaited Noche Buena Feast since I need to go to work. I already told myself that maybe this is a blessing in disguise since I will not be tempted to eat so much since the tempting cake site...but unfortunately all my plans are smashed into pieces as Convergy's gave us a treat of Sugpo, Carbonara, Lechon with Manok, Lumpia and various viands overflowing serving of desserts. Wow! I know that in times like this - I need to hold on my plan and I need not give in to my urges...but I can't help it! I just told myself that since it's Christmas - I will just give in, but just for this time...(never ending excuses!) I hate myself especially in situations like this, my will power is pulling me down and my hopes are slowly fading away... I don't know if I can still make it....but one thing is certain, If I continue to be like this - I mean being someone not sticking to the original plan, I know I will just continue to hate myself and my self esteem will definitely drop drastically! Hopefully come 2008 - everything will change...

By the way, my Christmas is just fine , though I was'nt able to spend Christmas Eve with Jojo - he still managed to fetch me right after my shift and we had an early morning breakfast at Mcdo. We also had a videoke session all morning at our place... Simple things like that with Jojo always makes my day...with him,My Christmas is not really bad after all.


<---pahabol--->

Gherj posing in front of the food table after a heavy meal.... Thanks Convergys for a superb feast, kabusog grabe!

This is it!

this is it! i finally have my own domain...of course I understand that along with it comes a lot of sacrifice and responsibility...hay. Hopefully I can make it. I'm not used to researching and providing detailed information about a certain topic but I'll try. Kakarerin ko nato, hehehe. Thanks to all those people who helped me put this up. Still no time for now to post but come January expect an entry blast,hahah! Thats all for now people, Merry Christmas everyone! Cheers!

routinary...

I made this blog so that I could inspire others to lose weight as well. I want to have a daily note on how I work hard just to lose these extra pounds I have...but till now, exactly 32 days after I wrote my first entry...I still have'nt started. I still eat dinner (having 2 cups of that fattening white rice) , I still ride a tricycle instead of just plainly walk to and from the office, I still ride the elevator instead of taking the ladder and I still sleep minimum of 8 hours a day after a heavy lunch! OMG! How can I ever do it? I'm struggling, really....seems like I am just wasting my time pouring out my thoughts into this without having a real goal and without having the patience and the will to turn this thoughts into reality...I cant go on like this...I need a drastic change...and this time it must be a for real...

I need to fit in...

I've checked my photo album last week and I was able to see my old pictures (2 to 3 years back). Oh no, i cant believe its me...Before i can even wear a mini skirt even though Im already 130-140 lbs . And at that time,I thought of my self as obese! Im really so pissed, if I only knew I should have worn all the clothes while I still can. Now, they are stuck in my drawer...waiting forever to be worn again by me. (sigh)


Anyway, its not too late I know...I already have a plan. This December - right after I receive my 13th month pay, Ill gonna buy little machine called body slender...I saw an ad about that in Channel 13. This is a little machine that promises to help you out lose weight in an average of 5 lbs per month. As of now, Im kinda excited about this,,,Here's how it looks like:

All you need to do is to step on the pedals - one foot at a time.Once you're standing firmly on the Body Slender, just lean and balance yourself from one side to the other. As you're doing this, your entire body - from your legs to your abs - gets a total and complete workout! Sounds good! I can do that maybe after I took my lunch and while Im watching my favorite noontime show! Here in the Philippines it costs at around php 3000 ( about $70), but Ill still gonna research about it in Google to check if I could purchase it else where - maybe on ebay or somewhere else.

For now, at least, I'm progressing in my plan to lose these extra pounds!That's it for now, actually, I wrote this blog to pour out my sentiments especialy with regards to inequality between fat and thin...(I'm not really against thin people though), its just so happen that there's a big gap between the two...with regards to love, opportunities and status quo...fat people are associated with being undiciplined and lacks self control while thin people are often referred to as determined and competitive. Did'nt these people know that our body structure is defined with a combination of a lot of things? Be it genes that you acquired from your parents, diseases, andsocial influences. We should not be blamed for being fat...but for the sake offeeling the feeling that I belong again, I intend to do this. I want to belong again in the society that only "thin" people are considered normal...

I need to loose all of these....

I dont know why i feel this way. I'm a type of person who always sees the good in myself, but after my check up yesterday - I feel im not myself anymore. Yes, Im not pretty…im not sexy as well…and my intelligence is just like any other Filipina you know…but i've always feel that i'm a woman of purpose, i know I have a special task to do in this life…unfortunately, until now (im already 27) i still cant figure it out.

Yesterday, I - with my boyfriend went to the hospital and had my check up since I wont show up for work tonight (btw, i work for a call center in Pasig and my shift is from 9pm to 6am) and the nurse, after checking on my blood pressure and all, asked me to step on the weighing scale…i cant recall when was the last time i stepped on thatkind’a scale. Maybe the reason is that I don't want to know how heavy I am, but the nurse repeat herself and i dont have a choice but to do so…I was so humiliated when she said “Mam, you're already 175 lbs!” … i really cant believe it. I was so shocked that it took me a minute to go down the scale and finally go back to my seat. I can still remember when I was in college, my mother would tease me “balyena” (whale) when she found out that I am already 130 lbs. I don't know what will she call me once she learns that her daughter is now 45 lbs heavier! An elephant maybe or a hippo..(sigh)

Seriously, I really feel dismayed. Im not like this before, I used to be a sweet chubby lad with lots of passion to do good and enjoy life, someone who has lots of dreams and a very passionate person always wanting to succeed..but what happened? She now turned into a 175 lbs lady, a girl who sleeps after a heavy meal..a sluggish girl who’d rather ride tricycle (a 3 wheeler bike) than to walk…a girl who does'nt care if her underwear is already worn and torn (as long as she can still use it - it does'nt bother her). I don't want to be like this…my experience with that hospital is really an eye opener. I want to be the person I am 4 years ago…when dreams seems so near and happy days seems endless…

Please stay with me through this jouney of letting go of my weaknesses and taking back what was mine…. Nothing should make me feel as miserable as I am now… Life is beautiful, I can do this….aja!

Emote na tayo!

Halika na at mag-emote...its good for the heart...