The Last Come Back?

It’s been a while since I last posted my last blog entry. It’s been a wonderful yet rough 6 months. Just to give you a brief summary of what happened…. I’m already residing in Montalban Rizal. Yes, I already got my own house. Uhm, well, technically it’s not really mine because I got a loan to avail of it through Pag-ibig but at least I don’t get to rent anymore. I’t s mine and it’s the greatest blessing I’ve got so far this year. Life here is so simple. I feel at ease. I don’t feel the pressure of the fast changing world. Here you can breath fresh air, you can relax, sleep the whole day.  Whenever I’m here… it feels like I don’t want to leave anymore. This house is indeed God’s present to me…I don’t know if I deserve it…I haven’t done much in my life worth getting such a huge gift…but He gave it to me anyway. And because of that, I now understand the meaning of God’s love… a free gift…

I know I’ve written about getting back on blogging and how I want to be a successful blogger. I thought I would retire writing articles and getting a lot of money through it. Because I haven’t done this for quite sometime now, I don’t know how to start. I don’t know if my dream of getting rich because of my blogs would still come true, but I am taking it slow. I really need money to pay for the house and I know that I can’t work in a Call Center my whole life. Hope that through this first step, I can make it to the top. 

Jennifer Hudson's tweet to Jessica Sanchez

It's really overwhelming for someone to receive a tweet especially from a well known singer such as Jennifer Hudson. That might be what Jessica Sanchez felt when she received a tweet from Jennifer Hudson. When Jessica Sanchez took the stage and perform the Whitney Houston's "I Will Always Love You" - she got a cheer from the famous Jennifer Hudson. She then tweeted "Yes Jessica! That's it!" Jessica learned about it and had an emotional reaction.

"Me and my uncle were in the same room when we saw the Tweet and we were like, crying and freaking out," Jessica told AccessHollywood.com's Laura Saltman, backstage after last night's show. "She's one of my idols. It's crazy." When asked why she chose the song "I will always love you" by Whitney Houston, she answered, "I was very confident of my choice at first because I was like, 'Everyone knows this song, it'll go good, whatever. I've been singing this song my whole life,'""But then I started realizing it's like one of the biggest songs.... But it really did pay off. I'm really happy." As for the standing ovation from the audience, Jessica said she was so caught up in the moment she didn't really notice what was going on. "I didn't see it coming -everybody did amazing tonight," she said. "I'm so grateful and I'm just so happy and I'm just living in the moment right now."

As a Filipina, I'm was so proud about what our kababayan has reached. Thinking about what Jennifer Hudson tweeted Jessica Sanchez gives me the chills.

Go Pinay! Go Jessica Sanchez!

My 32nd Birthday Celebration

Last Saturday, right after my shift...me and hubby headed to Montalban to celebrate my birthday and to also take a glimpse of our new home. I took a time off from work so we could celebrate it the day after which is a Sunday. The original plan was to go to Church first and then check on the house but the plan changed and we just strolled around the village at around 6am. As what we previously do, we stroll around Villa Anna Maria, a subdivision close to where my mom lives and a village where my cousin's house now stands. Then at around 11 am, I along with the whole gang headed to Robinsons Montalban and ate lunch at Jollibee. It's my little nephew Empoy's favorite hang out and we ordered him Chicken Joy and Ice Cream. It's nice to see him smile and having fun with me and my mom. Rarely did my brother Elmer allows him to mingle with us for 

A Birthday Prayer

Today is my 32nd birthday! Thank you Lord for letting me live this long. I have not been a good daughter to you Lord but I hope you still hold on to me. I have been so selfish and have only thought of myself. Jesus, thanks for all the blessings you've showered me. Especially on my birthday, in five hours...I will be calling up Pag-ibig fund to know the status of my PAGIBIG HOUSING LOAN APPLICATION. Hopefully they approve my P850k housing loan application so I can already pay my downpayment and finally move in this March. Here's the house I've been dreaming of and hopefully will be my home next month. I really feel that 2012 is my year, I would do my best to fix my life and I intend to glorify God with a new me. Amen

Welcome 2012!

Happy New Year Everyone! Time flies so fast, in about a month and a half...another year would be added in my age as I will soon celebrate my 32nd birthday. Wow! I still can't believe it. Most of the girls my age already have their own families, have a husband and at least one child. But here I am, still single with no plans of getting married anytime soon nor have a child. I don't know if I just don't feel the urge of having a family of my own or I just don't have goals in my life. Sure, I wan't to be married soon but as of this point in my life, I don't feel it yet. I guess there are so many things in my life right now that I need to fix first before planning something as big as that.

Of course who wouldn't want a baby in the family. If I would be asked, I want to have one this year. Anyway, I'm already 32 - the same age as my mom when she bore me. If that would happen, my family especially mom and my dad would be delighted. If it would not happen this year, I know that God will give it to me at the right time.


Hope everyone had a happy new year. No more new year's resolution for me this year...but I sure would want to update this blog as often as I can...till next time!

Emergency

Earlier today, I received a call from my brother saying that my dad was rushed to the emergency room because of a mild attack. To be honest with you, I've been preparing myself for this. I normally picture this scenario wherein my brother would text or call me up in the middle of the night saying something bad that happened to my papa. But I guess even if you prepare yourself for things like this, it would still shock you. I called the office and let them know what’s going on because I need to be absent. Me and hubby hurriedly rushed at Sampaloc Hospital, that is where they rushed him in. Besides the fact that it’s close to where they currently live…it’s also a public hospital. I know they don’t have the money to at least make a deposit. When I saw him the first time, I knew it’s the start of something really serious. He can’t speak and he can barely move. They cuffed his foot on his bed because he was behaving badly the night before. My little brother and his cousin are the ones who took care of him before we came. They said my papa was intoxicated the night before which maybe triggered all these. I texted Intellicare to inquire about the coverage. I have enrolled papa as my beneficiary for the health benefits we have at Convergys. Good thing they have a 

I Need to Conquer My Fears

Well, I was profiled to apply for Quality Specialist. After five long years, I think it's high time for me to explore new things and see what else I could accomplish in my professional career. Don't get me wrong, I'm still a happy agent. I can do a lot of things without pressure, I can go home immediately after my shift, I can be absent for work if I want to. But through the years, I feel as if everything is routinary and that there are not much challenges for me anymore. I feel as if I need to try to unleash my potentials and see what else I can do besides taking in calls.

My current supervisor asked me if I would pursue with the application and I said yes. In the back of my mind, there are many doubts. I admit, I fear rejection. I fear not being able to get the job. I fear what other people might say. I know I can do the job well but one mistake might ruin it all. Still I am decided to pursue with it, until the last minute. The same day I was about to pass my application, my boss was absent. I don't know what I'll gonna put on my application letter as he never coached me about the position before. I felt inferior and I felt as if I won't be able to make it. I again took one step behind and let this opportunity pass me by...for the nth time...

I know I should not be like this. I know I won't get to where I want to be unless I try. I want to be brave enough to accept challenges and even possible failures. I should change my way of thinking and know that failures are necessary for me to be a better agent, better employee, better person. There has been so many regrets in my life solely because of one thing...fear of failure.

Have read Bro. Bo's book "Don't worry, be happy" and what inspires me is what he wrote in the final chapter about his first experience in rock climbing. Before he tried it, he was very afraid of the steep mountain. He felt as if he can never reach the top of that gigantious mountain...there's really no way. But when he faced his fear and started going up...he felt very brave. It's all because of the thick rope that is tied around his waist. He knows that whatever happens, even if he slips...even if he falls...this thick rope will prevent him from breaking his arms, legs. He knows that the rope will pull him up and will lead him to safe landing whatever happens. And how happy was he when he reached the top. He won't be able to reach it if he didn't even tried. Same with our mountains of fear. You can't conquer it unless you tried. God is the rope...we need to climb above our fears knowing whatever happens, even if we fail and slip...He will never let us fall because he is the one who'll lead us to safety landing. We just need to try and try.

I hope through the next opportunity, I won't be afraid anymore. I need to deal with failure the right way. As the saying goes, it really isn't about how many times you fail but how many times you get up after each failure. I guess I need to begin counting now...